XConfessions by Erika Lust, Hungry For Your Touch

Director Erika Lust
Performers Maria Agrado, Desmond Bjúlf

Absolutely nothing can substitute a loving embrace
I thought about it today. It’s been four years since anyone has touched me. The last time was my ex and it was us being intimate one more time before breaking up. That was in March 2014, how terrible is that? I hate Tinder, it’s hard for me to get intimate and let myself go, I do not like one night stands… But I can’t do it anymore, I need to be touched.
I decided that I could not continue like this when I saw myself approaching a guy creepily in the subway at rush hour just to feel his body. For a year now, I have been going to this spa every time I can afford it. There’s this masseur working there and he is tall, tattooed, strong but sweet and affectionate, tender and kind. His touch fills me with heat, during those 60 minutes I feel like I am in another world. I think I am going crazy because I want his touch so much. I’m obsessing over him like the character in I LOVE DICK. I don’t know what to do!

Erika’s comment
This confession made me think a lot about how much we actually need each other. We need human connection and physical touch like we need oxygen and water. Psychologists call this phenomenon “skin hunger”. Hungry For Your Touch is all about our craving for contact. Touch can be exciting, touch can be healing, it can transform emotions and energies from one person to another and without it we’re not able to survive. Make sure you give your loved ones an extra large hug when you’re done watching this!