XConfessions by Erika Lust, Madly in Love with My Best Friend28 August 2020
Director Erika Lust
Performers Romy Furie , Cara Vega, Miguel Zayas
I think I’m madly in love with my best friend
“I think I’m madly in love with my best friend, but of course, she doesn’t know. I’m not sure if she even likes women… She is the coolest person I’ve ever met, so sexy, so modern, so confident. Everything I lack, she has.
Sometimes I’m not really sure if I’m madly in love with her, or if I just want to be her.
Yesterday I had a strange dream about her. I was watching her having sex with a singer in this weird and sensual club. I was hiding between doors and curtains and people, balancing my desire to watch with the guilt and shame and fear of getting caught watching them. I felt dizzy, and when I came back from my dizziness I had become her, and she was the one watching me.” — By ShyNina
Erika’s comment: “This goes out to all those who are in love with their best friend and know how painful it can be to be so close, yet so far away all the time. Sometimes you think you just can’t hold in in any longer, but you stay quiet and hold it back because you know that saying it out loud will change everything between you forever.
Well, now imagine you could have one night without worrying about tomorrow, one night of blurring the lines between love and friendship, reality and imagination without any further consequences. Would you go for it?”